Angels ~ A date with a Stranger

I always have this thought why we meet people, embrace them in our life and finally let them go away from us. This thought always takes a special place in my heart. I have had lost most precious ones in my life. Few were their decisions and few were mine. Do I regret walking away from the people who have loved me more than anything? Yes, I have regrets, but then I believe, everything happens for a reason. The people who have walked out or from whose life I have walked out were not meant to be in my life forever. If it was, I believe they would be still there. The same is me in their life too. Our purpose in each other’s life is over and we have to move on, no matter what.

I have read somewhere angels come to us in disguise of people around us. They come to us to be our support system throughout a phase. God knows when to send them to us and when to take them back from us. It’s when the angel decides to leave, the people who has been our support system forever decides to leave us or it’s when we decide to move away from them.

I experienced the same in last two days. An angel decided to walk into my life, when I thought I am lonely the most. He was lovable, filled my day with adventure, love, what not! An evening in beach, holding hands, small pecks in cheeks or head or hands, sharing phases of our life, our thoughts, embracing the sea breeze holding our hands…. The list won’t end if I start explaining whatever I felt, and the words may fell short even if I try to explain. In these two days, I never felt, I am with a stranger. I felt home.

Would I feel bad if he walks out of my life? I don’t know. What I know is, he is the reason why I lived these two days, happily. He made me smile, made me feel loved, made me feel good…

Whatever we had during this short period was special. I wouldn’t let any other thoughts spoil the moments I have treasured somewhere in my heart. Thank you Mr. Stranger, for making me feel better, for making me feel loved, for making me be happy, the list will go on and on if I continue writing. Thank you for everything!

Lost Friend

Everyone would have had that one best friend whom you might have lost because of some reason. If you haven’t lost a friend, then I would say you are lucky. Here, these upcoming lines are from someone, who still thinks about that one friend, whom she lost in her school days. Most of you might think I am crazy and the reason why I have never written or spoken anything about it.

I wish I can correct those mistakes of my life,
Wish I had not made one of my friend feel bad about me at school,
Even after these many years, I regret and wish if I can get my friend back,
That friend, who didn’t like me giving me a shy smile when teachers asked Q&A’s,
That friend, who never wanted me to feel bad on my birthday and made my another friend gift me a card,
That friend, for whom I had wept most of my school days for,
That friend, who bought gift for another friend, and had my name with hers on the gift wrap,
That friend, who treated and talked to me well when we didn’t even knew each other much,
She is that kind of person… cute and loving…
After all these years, still tears clog my eyes when I think of my school days and her
You know what hurts the most? It’s when you don’t know the reason why your loved one is angry on you.
All these years, I only wanted to know why she hated me or ignored me so much.

Those days, I ignored or failed to notice many of my well-wishers at school, just because I couldn’t see anyone beyond her. Our friends used to bully me, asking me why I was so crazy about her. She or they will never know the heart felt closeness that I had felt for her.

Last few days in school, I understood and moved on. I gave her the space and tried to never cross her path even by mistake. I was happy seeing her happy with her new found friends. I started caring for all those good friends and well-wishers I had in our class.

Then the day came, the day we all had gone to school for collecting our certificates. I was so happy to see her after so many days. However, not sure if anyone noticed the immense pain that I felt when she ignored and walk past me as if I was invisible for her. I lived with that pain each and every day ever since.

Sometimes, I wish if she would ever understand the pain that I had gone through, when she ignored me; when she had left out my hand made gift in someone else’s bag in school days. But then again the next moment, I wish she should never go through the same because I know how badly it hurts! I don’t know if she had ever seen tears in my eyes, when they were in her eyes. My love for her and her friendship will always reside in my heart, no matter how old I become.

Even after school days, I continued sending her cards for her every birthday. Somewhere deep inside I knew, she had always expected that from me. Once I sent her a birthday card through one of our common friends. That evening, that friend came up and told me that when she handed over the card, my friend’s new friend in that new school guessed that it should be from me. That way I came to know that she told her new friend about me. Good or bad, she won’t ever know how good I felt that day.

Sometimes destiny plays its own game. I was so happy when I saw her accidently at our office cafeteria after so many years. I had to blink my eyes twice to make sure it was her. She had seen me at the same time too. We smiled and walked towards each other without any hesitancy. We spoke like long lost friends and in the end before leaving, I held her hand and asked, if she was still angry. She smiled sweetly and held my hand tightly.

We are still not the old best friends. But I was and am still very thankful to God for that one meeting he had arranged for me.